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Hello all,

 I've run into a 'dilemma' of sorts and would like to gather some advice here.  Here's a bit of my story:

 I attended a strict, fundamentalist christian school from kindergarten to 12th grade.  Strict creationism was the rule of thumb.  This resulted in a significant lack of interest in the earth and the cosmos.  Partly because, if the earth was just a suffering cage, why care about it? 

Apart from the teachers who actively suppressed interest in the cosmos, my decreased visualization skills made it all but impossible to grasp that I was living on a sphere.  This was thanks in part to the endless barrage of entertainment media (videogames, movies, television) I and countless others were 'subjected' to after school.   Needless to say, I found myself in art school, working to become a comic book artist and animator.  Something peculiar happened though. 

 The decision to become a comic book artist was a strange one indeed.  Quite frankly, I was too dumb at the time to realize how difficult it would actually be.  After the first year of school, I found myself back at home desperately studying perspective theory to make my dreams a reality. 

 This resulted in 2 entire years spent inside my room at home, every day consisting of nothing more than projective geometry and linear perspective studies.  1,500 pages of notes and one tired mind later, I finally made the connection.  I realized that the perspectives I attain when walking about outside during my 'everyday life' are perspectives of the sphere of the earth commonly viewed in 'globe' and photograph form.  Finally.... the connection.

 Combined with a few watching of Sagan's Cosmos, I found myself filled with wonder, interest and anger.  I was angry that I had been assaulted by television, videogames and movies during the tender development years of my life.  I was angry that they almost took away my ability to grasp the cosmos and the fact that I live on a ball. 

This has led me to a terrible dilemma.  The perspective skills I've developed make it impossible to ignore the cosmos.  I've raised my consciousness-level far too high.  Currently, I'm signed up to start Geology at college this upcoming fall.  I struggle though.  I've really come far as an artist, but I nearly despise the consciousness-lowering effect that popular entertainment media has on the mind. 

 I'm wondering if anyone else here has converted to the sciences in a similar way.  I don't expect too many responses.  This forum seems hardly noticeable amidst the vast ocean of activities which put us back to sleep, incapable of grasping reality and the cosmos. 

 Thanks.